The day Before I leave

well, its actualy in a few hours. its about 6am now, soooo in about ,8 hours, my flight will be taking off. I had an interesting break to say the least. I just got done packing, and I am just praying my bags dont weigh anymore than 50lbs... cuz wouldnt that be a pickle. like. for reals. lol. Im going to miss my home Chicago. But there are a few ppl here that need to forget bout me, cuz it was starting to get a big sticky around here. But we wont go there.... lol. Im sooo ready to be going back to NY. Ready to go see my boo. chill on campus. but soon as i get there. i practically have to go to sleep. 8am class.... sucks. but gotta do wat i gotta do. ya Digg? lol. But either ways. again. Imma miss my city, my room, my bed, Until i come back in May. Which seems really far, but its really not. 4 months of hell an school PLUS its gonna get warmer, so ill be out more too. This semester, im playing no games. Imma be more blunt bout stuff, and ppl will jus have to deal. Cuz im soooo tired of phony ppl, an ppl being phony to me. Im gonna tell ppl how i really feel about them, an hoepfully get the respnse that will best suit us. Ugh, rants, I know. Btw.. my ears are still sore. I hope this is normal. I mean. I clena like im supposed to, i turn ir, but they still feel sore. My friend saiud its cuz it is still a wound. i mean. it has been at LEAST almost 36 hours since i got it. but its yeah, not gonna heal soon enough.. sucks ASS... but its cool Im off to bed cuz i gotta wake up early, like. in an hour or so here. Just so i know i will be on time for my flight. Ugh, the things i do... lol. Much love.

-Ajay.

Chipotle

Im at chipotle on my last sunday. Kickin it tho. Lol. Wit my friends
Jamila, Kristen, Thomas, an Kevin. WE had fun enuf tho. I got my ears
peirced. I wanna hide it from my mom only cuz she think I have keloids.
Idk if I have it or not. But ill take my chances. If I see something,
then im taking it out for it to close and heal. My ears are soooo sore.
Lol but its cool. No worries for now. Im spending my last sunday in
Chicago. Im kinda excited and nervous tho. School is almost here. My
first year is almost over. Random thought. Hagve u ever felt excluded,
like u wish u knew wat was goin on, an u left out tho. I hate when that
happens...
--serene09

Untitled

Here is a poem I wrote in Choir rehearsal. I was mad bored, and reading something for a paper i didnt do... toooooo bad I got a B- outta that class too... lol. ah wells. here's my poem.


Dark Dreaming
Darkly Abnormal
My mond isnt right
My Heart is hurting
Its dark outside
its cold outside
Its dark behind my eyes
Its dark behind my eyelids
Its so uncomfortable
Im not used to this darkness
My mind is only in the dark
All these images of sufferiing
................
and non-being.
I try to heal an go to light
Jus to open my eyes to something more
But its just not working the way it should.
Im scared, but i do see a light
but no one is helping me towards it
So I sit in my darkness
Alone,
and practically nothing...,,

I MADE ICE CREAM SANDWICHES!!!!

So. I made Ice Cream sandwiches with my besty Wed. Night. Homemade tooo.
Shyt was bomb. See!! Lol. Omg. Lol. The memories. We caught up. An imma
miss that heffa hoe. Won't see her again till May ='( oh well. Thas wat
college is for tho. Mhmmm lol

HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!

oh. ok. so im mad late. like. 17days actually.  but hell. betta late than never. HAPPY NEW YEARS!!! ITS 2010!!! i brought it in the right way. Did you?

Youth->Adulthood... wats really good

Sooo.. im watching Adult swim. A boring saturday night i know, but i mean. Yeah. lol. So im Watching adult swim, and realized that there are some shows that cant be replaced. there used to be this show called Big O. It seems really nasty, but its really not. It was an Anime Show, that actually had a message. I grew up on it, an it was very grown ppl oriented. And then there is this show called Cowboy Bebop. Good shyt too tho. These shows were meant to be watched and enjoyed, now shows are being catered to a more mature audience, and these people are only 14+. When i was 12, adult swim was for 18+. So my whole thing is, what is happening to the world today?? Are we really training our kids to be adults early on in life? I mean, think about it tho. Wat madness... but i can enjoy my shows alll the same. lol I miss my youth. Ooooo the days