Where my head is....

So, I do have something troubling my mind....

There is this person. We shall call them Tennessee (TN for short). TN and I have been talking for almost a year. It's been a good year. A troubling year. A maturing year. The start of our Senior year of college. Ironically, we met randomly from Twitter. We followed each other and kinda flirt from time to time, but I didn't think anything of it. I thought it was conversation, but they were interested in me. This is back in August 2012, maybe mid-August. Cool. I would say by the end of August, I started to catch feelings. Using 'babe', 'bae', all that good-ish. Not realizing what it was actually doing.

Mind you, I haven't been in a lot of relationships. Maybe 3 maximum, and that's a sham if I include one of those. lol. But I have always wanted one. Not a perfect relationship, but definitely one where we can get along. Where we can laugh, get smacked together, and have phenomenal sex, whenever and wherever we felt. A compromise.

So, TN long story short was ready for one. I was leaning towards one, but I was, and still not ready. In October, TN was making a trip to the East coast and we decided that we would finally meet up and truly feel each other out. Shockingly, it did. When their friends met me, they were happy. When I met TN, I was happy. Overall, it was a good trip. TN went back to where they were going and here I am, back in my room in NYC. We would Skype and text and call all the time. However, I started to feel caved in. Almost like i was being forced into something. TN started saying "I love you", I surely didn't. However, I made that fatal mistake in November. But it was legit. I do love TN, just not in the same manner. Through our conversations, I learned that we are complete opposites in personality. But we are the same. It was weird, and unfamiliar territory for me.

My Svedka Taste of Summer...

Summer is finally here, especially with the onset of Memorial Day weekend finally here. It comes as no surprise that some well-known alcohol brands begin to launch brand new flavors, very fitting for the start of summer. Svedka launched two new flavors, Strawberry Colada and Orange Crème Pop, both screaming to be a cold refreshing drink in the sweltering heat bound to happen.

Upon entering the event I was greeted with a beautifully decorated glass, drowned in a mixed drink I couldn’t remember. The room was a bit sparse, but plenty of people there mingling and getting to know people. As I sipped my first drink, I felt the smoothness of the cocktail flow from my straw, it was phenomenal. Being the only one there, I had to make friends with the bartenders, and what friends they became.

A graduate speaks

So, I have now completed my undergraduate college career. Ask me how I feel? I feel the same as I did 2 months ago, like I am still in school. The only difference is that I do not have to really take any more classes or anything. Ok, I lied. I have to retake a Philosophy Metaphysics class because my teacher was a complete DOUCHE! And I said it, and I do not mind. My last college semester was stressful, and he didn't care at all. So, I'm over it.

So, here I am. Walked across the stage almost a week ago. Laying in my bed. Should be completing these assignments for my internships. Yet, I am blogging. I have no idea what to say, or how to say it. I feel liberated, yet lost at words in what I am going to do with the rest of my life. I have 2 internships and now a job for the summer. This my young friends, is an interesting experience. I am just trying to get my life where it needs to be. In 3 years, I would like to have a salaried job. By the time I am 28, I would like to have a child, a son preferred. By 35, I would like to be relocated somewhere, but my main home in NYC. Oh, and I for damn sure am not raising my child in NYC. I refuse. lol

There is sooo much to post, yet so little time, and I have no idea on where to begin. I guess that means I will have to come back and post huh?