I don't know how to feel

I want to be like whatever, lets fuck, even if u not interested; or
pissed cuz my friend was drunk. A messy drunk too. Under the influence
of Alcohol...... an if u gonna pregame, do it in Moderation.....

So my friend Bryan was drunk. We were supposed to meet at Ruby Tuesday,
an meet his potential from London, and our mutual friend Al. It was
supposed to be a civilized night. Fun night. To gab an catch up on life.
No. Bryan shows up late, drunk, an calls sayin he stuck inside the
bathroom at McDonalds. If that don say enuf. Idk. This is all jus to
much to interpret. Overall. This man jus messed up. An he was outta this
world sexy. Id certainly try an hit. I wantd to. But. Al stole the show.
An thas DEF fine with me. Lol. Im happy for him. I mean. Nothing may
happen btween them. But hell. Lol. Mmmmm he was fucking scrumptious.
Lemme tell u. I wanna put up a pic. Hell. I will. And I doubt ppl will
see this blog/post. Lol. He from London/Nigeria/lagos. Ok. Im done. Here
he is..... he is the one on the left. Bryan is on the Right. Drunk
mouths speak a sober mind. Thas all I will say. He said an did things
unnecessairly. I love him tho. But dam.... but yeah. The sexy one on the
left. Mmmmhmmmm lol

Oh. An I spent $87 at Target. Highly upsetting. Granted, everything I
got I needed, but that doesn't mean I wantd to spend all my money there.
Wat bout my shoes an clothes I was supposed 2 get with that money. FUCK!
Oh well. But this is me on the way. I thought I bein fresh an wat. Thas
a lie. Lol. But I try. I need to update my shoes and clothes tho. Fuck.
I jus want a sugar mama to take care of me. Ill eat da pussy. Buy me
some gucci. Hell. Even some pucci.... I wana be fresh

God. I love being in New York.... imma miss it come May 12 though. Im
gonna wanna go an visit an everything quite often over the summer. Fuck
work. Lol. Well. Lemme work THEN! Come out here early. Lol. Al is a mess
love it. Lol. So is Bryan when he sober. Lol. All 3 of us are special. I
wish I was born and raised on the East Coast. Especially in New York. To
have grown up here in the 90's. Early 2000's. Idk. I jus love it here.
Granted. The water has def fucked up my skin. But I love it here. So
much I have experienced, and its only been wat, 6 months. Im sure it'll
get old to me, but there will always be more to explore, least ti me.
Ugh. Yeah. Lol. Im done. Smooches world. Mucho luvo mi amors.

No playing on my way home from the eventful night, lol, (Try Again-
Aaliyah)...... I miss her. Ok. Thas another rant for another time.
Duces.
--serene09 Ajay